hay... i dont really know.. i just wanna write this.. and NO, this is not a copy-paste like the last 2 entries..

why is it that when you would fall in love with someone, that's the time when they would suddenly leave your side, or at least your heart, like pooof! I mean, isn't that so ironic that when you start realizing that the person you really like is someone is really a person you love, that person sunddenly says, "Your really a great FRIEND to me..", sad right? "Would there really come a time when you would find someone right?", that would probably be your first question. And the next whine you would say is, "I'd like to die... end my life..". I dont really know... if we would really be ready enough to make a commitment such as a relationship, and, make it last.

i really wonder, what would be better, to know that someone loves u, yet, u dont have the same feelings as that person has for you? or the other way around, loving a person who doesn't pretty much have any care for you in that department..? maybe answers would vary.. some has said to me, it was better if that person loved me, because i can learn to love that person back. but i realized that was not applicable to me. because i have experienced it before.. yet it did not work out.. i dont the feeling, did i just waste the love? did i just throw those feelings away---- the feeling that you would throw last, LOVE?

or the other way around..? loving someone that doesn't, in all frankness, love you. Now, that would also hurt the other way around. This would severely hurt YOU. And believe me, i know. It would absolutely devastate everything you have made, you have built. You would rather have died than to have wasted all your time, all your energy, all your feelings, on something so down-right inevitable. That the person you have loved so much, thinks your just a friend.

The real challenge would be knowing how to overcome this.. the feeling of failure. Yun bang dahil nag-fail ka na sa isang love mo, parang wala ka nang silbi, ok lang sayo kahit mamatay ka na. Pero ang tanong, may mangyayari bang maganda pag namatay kna? Wala. Zero. Nada. Mas dadami lang ang magiging malungkot sa pagkamatay mo. Nver think that you are just "no one" to everyone. If you think like that, think again. There is that special someone, yung tipong tao na pagkinausap mo, laging andyan lang siya. Hindi ka nya dinededma pag magkasama kayo, or hindi ka nya kinakausap dahil lang naaawa sya sayo kasi walang kumakausap sayo. May isang tao na totoo tlga.. na d ka nya iiwan.. haha,you may ask,"does this person even exist?!" hmm..... OO, he exists. You just have to find that person. Mahirap sya hanapin, yes. Pero that person would be a treasure for life. Siya yung taong pag galit ka sa kanya, hindi sya titigil sa kaka-sorry hanggat d mo siay napapatawad.. ganun ang tunay na kaibigan. But then, you suddenly realize..

that person.. who stood by you all the way... was really the one, who would make your life complete. The One. -Michael Roy Reyes